Patiently waiting...sorta.

So the news broke around 3 pm today that the Grad school acceptance/rejection letters were sent out today!!! That being said I wrote my address down as my parents so my letter will be sent to Wynne.  Several of my friends found out that they were either accepted or rejected since they are still in school their letters were sent to their campus mail box.  I am still patiently or impatiently waiting.  I have cried and gotten close to throwing up over the past 11 hours as I think of what the next 24/48 hours holds.  I know God is in control of my future, but I am just so nervous.  I have worked the past 3 and a half years for a piece of paper that either accepts or rejects me to the next step.  Yes if I don't get accepted this year I can always re-apply, but what will I do for the next year until that time comes? I am trying so hard to be patient and give it to God.  I had thought, until today, that I was really improving in this whole "give it to God" thing.  Today, however, shows that I am just a mere human and I have a lot more to work on.  So what if I do get in?  I will be VERY happy and will continue to read my CSD books to prepare myself for grad school!!! What if I don't get in?  Well I have been contemplating this for several weeks now... I think I have decided that if I don't get in I will start working on the physical therapy pre-reqs and then apply to physical therapy school.  I don't have the passion for pt that I have for Speech, but I can't see myself sitting out an entire year.  My professors encouraged us to improve our application if we don't get in...somehow enhance your resume...huh?  I have no idea how I can possibly enhance my resume by working at Chili's.  I don't even know why I am worrying about all of this before I receive that precious/dreaded letter in the mail, but for some reason it is all keeping me from sleeping.

On an entirely different note... Today is Ash Wednesday.  Although I am not Catholic I like to give something up every year until Easter.  I think this is a very good ritual that the Catholics do and I enjoy practicing it.  I'm not exactly sure their stipulations/rules on it, but here are mine... I give up something that I desire on a daily/habitual basis and whenever I crave/desire it I turn to prayer instead of my personal desire.  This year since I am training for the half marathon I decided to give up sugars ex: chocolate, ice cream, and candy as well as carbs: rice, pasta, bread, and potatoes.  I am hoping to continue this "fast" even past Easter up until the race itself the last weekend in April.  I feel like this not only will help detox my body for the race, but it will enhance my prayer life which can always use a little enhancing.

Next on my brain is my mission trip to the Bahamas which is a week from today.  I'm not quite sure if it has hit me that I am actually getting to go.  I have dreamt of going on this mission trip since I was in High School and finally this year I am going!!! I am really excited about what its going to revel and what we are going to be able to teach the people down there. I am most excited about teaching VBS to the children in the schools! Oh fun times await!  Please pray that God goes ahead of us and softens the hearts of the people down there.  Also that he prepares our minds and hearts to say the words that they need to hear.

What is new?

Well once again it has been a while...so what have I been up to? Working!!! I have been working for two weeks straight with zero days off.  Yes this is really lame, but the money is nice.  I am starting to catch on to the way Chili's works.  I haven't really messed up an order in a while which is a positive thing.

I feel the desire to get away from Searcy.  I also have a strong desire to go shopping!!! I am leaving in 12 days to go on a Mission trip to the Bahamas with my church from Wynne.  I am really excited about it.  I have sat on the sidelines and watched a small group of 12 people go year after year on this trip and I am finally getting the chance to go!

From my understanding the decisions have been made about grad school, but the letters won't be sent out until mid-March.  I am really nervous, but I am working hard on giving it all to God.  I am working on a back up plan incase I do not get in anywhere.  Yes...that's a typical Jenn move to have a back up plan for everything...is that really giving anything to God if you have a back-up plan? Probably not...yikes.

Lauren's wedding is rapidly approaching.  I found an awesome lingerie website...lingeriediva.com. I honestly recommend it for anybody throwing a lingerie shower or attending a friend's lingerie shower.  It has awesome lingerie for reasonable prices.  I need ideas for a fun Bachelorette party without strippers or alcohol?  If anybody has any ideas please let me know.

I joined the Netflix world yesterday... I do believe it is the best thing that has happened to me this month. I know it's only the 5th but still! I have watched 6 movies already...which makes me sound like a loser, but I LOVE movies!!!

Anyways that is all that is going on in my life right now.  I am going to try to make cookies tomorrow and hopefully I'll upload pictures of my apple pie that I made not too long ago soon!  Chili's is taking over my life so Betty is being put on hold.