So since it is Christmas break, I find myself slightly bored. Yes believe it or not I've been out of school for a week and I'm already starting to get the itch to go back! As bad as it sucks while you're there, ya sure do miss it when its gone.
Basically I've been trying to figure out something to do with my free 5 week Christmas break. Tonight I worked out and watched my new obsession "How I Met Your Mother", but I had the desire to create something. I went to my very messy closet and dug out all of my art supplies. This lead to me seeing the Italy HUF 1 and 2 scrapbook that I started, but haven't finished. Discovering my HUF memories lead to me to a gallon zip-lock bag that contained all of my tickets, cards, etc from HUF 1. When I see a card that I actually kept, I have this HUGE desire to read it...so for the past thirty minutes I have been sitting in my floor reading. Well the cards were filled with encouraging and strengthening words as well as dozens of people saying they were praying for me, but they all left me wondering: What might have been?
Typically I am not a person that wonders about "What If" because who cares what if lets just focus on what is, but tonight I have let my mind wonder. "What If" I hadn't had the car wreck back in 2007? "What If"I wouldn't have had all the complications with my leg? "What If"I would've gone to Harding freshman year instead of CRC? "What If"I had gone to take a nap instead of going down the mountain one more time? "What If" my ski instructor would've spoken english? "What If" I would've stayed standing up instead of sitting down? "What If" I wouldn't have had to leave Italy after only being there a month?
Well with all of these questions there has to be some answer...
Here is my opinion: If I hadn't had the car wreck in 2007, then I would've continued to idolize guys and not have turned to God like I did. If I hadn't had all the complications with my leg, then I probably would've had a speedy recovery and again never had the relationship with God that I do. If I hadn't gone to CRC, then I wouldn't have the amazing friends I do today. Granted we don't talk very much, but I know they'd be there if I ever need them (Yes, Ro, I'm mainly talking about you!!) All that part seems to have positives that came from it. The only "What If" that I'm left still pondering on is: Italy!!! Well I've concluded something: if I hadn't broken my leg and gone home, then I wouldn't have spent the summer in Italy with one of the best Christian young ladies I've ever known, I wouldn't have gotten even closer to the "potluck" roommate that I had Sophomore year, and I wouldn't have the awesome memories that I have now. Granted HUF 1 was awesome too, but HUF 2 is where God wanted me to be. So I guess I don't have anymore "What If" questions to ask, but instead a lot of thank you prayers to say because although there was another road that I could've taken, God put me on the road I'm on for a purpose! Jeremiah 29:11
Oh yeah and after taking out all the scrapbook stuff, I'm putting it all back up. Gotta figure out something else to do.
