Not ready...

I am 3 days from leaving Searcy and I am NOT READY!!! I have honestly been in the worst mood for the past two weeks because I don't even want to think about leaving this town! I know Wynne will always be "home" like the town where I was born and raised, but Searcy has become my home!!! After I made the decision several months ago to stay here for another year and work at Chili's I became very happy with that decision.  I was totally at peace and now my world has been flipped upside down.  Don't get me wrong I am so happy that God blessed me with being able to get into Grad school, but I don't want to leave my town!!! I am a person that typically likes change, but this is a BIG change and I am scared.  I don't know my way around Jonesboro that well, I don't know my way around ASU at all, I don't know people there...grrr!!! I honestly feel like the little 19 year old sitting in my bedroom floor packing for college for the first time.  I remember crying my eyes out telling my daddy that I didn't want to leave.  That I wasn't old enough to leave my mommy and daddy.  He looked at me with those eyes only Daddy's have and said yes you are and we're only going to be an hour or so away.  He was right.  The first night was horrible.  I was terribly sick when they drove away, but after the first couple days passed I survived and loved it! Now here I am again not wanting to go, but I know I'll survive.  It's just taking that first step to jump... then you can fly...That's what I have to keep telling myself.  This is my chance to fly!!