3 am...

Well it is 3 am and I'm wide awake...why? I HAVE NO IDEA!!! I slept for maybe 30 minutes to an hour, but not anymore.  I can't get comfortable, the temperature isn't right, and closing my eyes isn't an option.  I have several things on my mind so I figured if I blogged then maybe I would be able to rest.  I'm just a few days away from completing my first month of grad school.  Insane how quickly time has passed.  I have my first final on Friday for Instrumentation.  So far I have a 4.0 in all my classes, but it hasn't come easily.  I quit my job at Chili's last week because they simply wanted me to work too late into the night and my workload was too heavy.  I've learned to take school work one day at a time.  I really cannot think about what homework is due next week or what test I may have or I'll become overwhelmed with stress. My classmates are really sweet ladies.  I don't really know them all that well yet, but we're only a month into a LONG 18 month process. My instructors are different, but knowledgable about their field of study. As sad as this may sound I have had to become lax about certain things.  I guess it is part of growing up and being in the world but not a part of the world.  There are days where I miss Harding and my CSD family like crazy and if I think about it too much I'll cry for a little bit reflecting on the memories, but then I remember that everybody has to move on at some point in their life and that MY GOD has a PURPOSE for my life. I know He wants me here for a reason and each week that passes I feel as though I see that reason a little more clearly.  January-April were hard spiritual times for me and ever since I moved here I have been a lot stronger of a Christian.  I am attending Valley View church of Christ and it is simply wonderful.  I am starting to form relationships with some of the people my age and I thoroughly enjoy it.  I feel as though every lesson has been written directly for me.  My Bible is constantly being written in with excellent points made by the different guest speakers and I can see my relationship with God growing deeper daily.  I concluded the other day that it may be possible God moved me here to bring me back to Him.  After analyzing that, I've decided if I don't pass my praxis or comps next fall, but I'm a young lady who can be seen as a pillar for God...I'll see this time spent as a success because in the end degrees, jobs, and money do not matter at all, but only my relationships with God and people.  So this may not make any sense considering it is super late and I am finally getting sleepy, but it is what I think about often.  I also am constantly singing a song that my precious Mommy has dedicated to me by SideWalk Prophets "The Words I Would Say"... The part that is always stuck in my head is..."Be strong in the Lord and never give up hope you're gonna do great things I already know, God's got His hand on you so don't live life in fear".  That isn't the entire chorus, but it is the part that plays on repeat in my head...God sure did bless me with incredible parents.  I'm so blessed that they passed on the love of Christ to me! Ok I'm going to sleep...again I'm sorry for the scatter-brained (probably not a real word) entry.